Un-motivated

Argh!

I have been 'enjoying' my term break (that lasts for a week) but instead of devoting myself to writing.. I've been drowning myself in work! Have been to school since Monday, working till I can't see the sun (okay, so I'm exaggerating here). Today I told myself that I should stop going to school and enjoy my holidays, but I have to bring my work home. And 3 hours since I woke up, I've not started on any work at all.

Maybe I should've gone back to school instead of bringing work home, but wouldn't that be such a pathetic thing to do, that I go back everyday in my holidays? :(

It doesn't help that I'm having such a BIG mental block in my writing. The chapter that I'm writing is crawling at such a snail's pace that I doubt I'll ever complete it at all.

You know, recently one of my friends (who didn't read my stories) peeked at my fanfiction profile and commented to me, "Isn't your story a little too long?"

That, I agree. 100,000 words is seriously no joke. Let us not forget the 60 something chapters in "I Want To Be A Turk!" I have, in all honesty, considered many alternatives to the ending of Days of Exile. Of course, I shan't be too hasty and declare that the ending is confirmed. I used to be really sure that this is what I want, but now, I'm not so confident.

I desire to venture into new grounds, because I'm getting too comfortable in my writing, and I'm also beginning to feel the strains of my multiple plot bunnies threatening loopholes whenever I think of something new in Days of Exile. I want to finish this story, I still do. But if I think that my quality's going to drop, I may take preventive measures.

I'm really rather burdened by this. No wonder many authors turned tail and fled from their budding stories. I don't want to end up like "Their Memories of Fukinara High" and run away before I could even finish it.

Well, perhaps I should get back to my reality and do my work first. :(